Back on the track

Indeed i try to understand life, and somehow the nature, by its cycles and what they do represent.

It is why the road in long and winding, sometimes even revolving. But passing in the same street make the experience equal?

In fact I do not think so. Walking the in same street, with the previous experience can be a brand new moment. Of course, with advantages and disadvantages, but brand-new.

For a man there are two main important ages, the 24 and 30. My 24 was nice, to not say wonderful. I took myself to another, and higher level of being. I understood myself, my body and my career in special level. I got muscles, reputation and learnt some shortcuts. It was intense… intense…

Surely, I have gathered the fruits of this phase for many years, till some point I lost the track.

About now, I am getting 30. I have one white hair now. I got it at some point in 2005. Furthermore, I still have hair! All of them!

I am 4 kilos heavier than before, but I tended to be skinny in that time. My body is better, my knee, which was a big problem back on the past, is rather stable.

I am back to high quality science. Whoever wants to confirm take a look on my CV. I thought I would not make any big step in science anymore. I was a bit gray. But, from this grayness grew novel ideas. Better and simpler.

We must always keep things as simpler as possible, but not simpler…

Yes, I am not writing in this blog very often anymore. Time is passing me by, flowing through my hands. And, in this rhythm, I am peacefully getting to my thirties.

Life has changed a lot in the past years. Indeed, life has always changed a lot. The coming year will not, for sure, be different.

I am very concentrated and efficient as I was at some point in my early twenties. It is hard to keep focused for long periods of time. It is really hard. But, somehow, I am in the past months.

Surely there are loads of things that put me down. I remember one advice I have heard in the past year: keep way of things you dislike. Thus, now, I am sort of doing it.

In July I will go back to Europe. The first time I step in it as a tourist. Ok, not exactly tourist, since a go mainly for business, but I do not have a place there as I did before. Interesting, and maybe a bit surprising, it does no bother me.

The plan is Spain, Portugal and maybe somewhere else. I would like to pop-up in UK, see my fellows at the Imperial College and in Oxford (the city, not university). Indeed, it is more important for me to step back at the Imperial, to reflect about life and some important decisions I had to carry in that place (and my buying a t-shirt to my daughter).

So, the coming years are the ENACOM’s years. The goal is simple, transform science in technology and make money. Proper money.

The year has started promising. We are efficient and organized.

Could I become rich in my early thirties?

So, the decade, the first of the century, is on the verge of finishing. It was, for the world, a quite interesting time even though fulfilled of unexpected events.

Probably the most important of them was that brazil won the 2002 world cup!! Lol… I am just kidding. The most important was the 11th of September 2001, when the twin towers fell down.

As a consequence (?), the American empire started to fall apart. And, is it good in the end? Somehow I think it is, however, I am afraid that a non democratic model will rise as the most important in the world. It is, indeed, dangerous.

About me. I was 19, now I am 29. it is impossible to think and measure things in this range. At least I believe I am better now than I was 10 years ago.

I am fitter. I have lived well and a lot. I am not that poor anymore. I still have hair!! Lots of a bad curly hair!

Yep, these past 10 years were good for me.

Então, já se passaram 3 anos da minha defesa de doutora. Três anos. O tempo passa tão rápido. Fiz tantas coisas. Tudo mudou. Previ coisas que não foram como deviam.

Três anos atrás estava preparando as minhas malas para voltar para a Inglaterra. Londres, Londres. Saímos de minha defesa, que acabou por volta das 17.30 e fomos para a minha casa comemorar. Parecia obvio naquele momento que o meu futuro passaria pelos três anos de contrato que havia assinado com o Imperial College of London.

Mas não foi assim. Não, não foi.

Algumas coisas mudaram de lá para cá. De fato, muitas coisas mudaram. Eu mudei… para quê cometer velhos erros com tantos novos a se cometer?

Fiquei mais amargo, mas mais calmo. Mais dinâmico mas mais paciente. Mais em paz em estar sozinho mas mais preocupado com a solidão.

Repensei minha forma de pensar a ciência. Felizmente me elevei para um nível diferente. Não diria nem certo, nem errado, mas sim, diferente. Não tenho necessidade de ser diferente, não , não tenho, mas aceito a diferença, as diferenças.

Cometi alguns pecados. Sim, pecados… mas em um estrada longa e tortuosa como esta é muito difícil não cometer pecados. Mas sim, de novo, cometi novos pecados. Mesmo quando a estrada é revolving e nunca volto ao mesmo lugar. Ou pelo menos não volto com o mesmo ponto de vista.

Para fechar onde comecei a escrita, previ coisas, não prevejo mais. Agora tento alterá-las…